your. SMILE(:

Sometimes, i feel that i try too hard. Damn with it, i DO try too hard. In a lot of things i do, in many areas, and in CERTAIN area, i really try much much too hard. So hard that it's bad for me. I will become pathetic, seemingly desperate. But it's really more of pathetic. That's how i feel. Like seriously, I've to keep pushing and pushing, prompting and prompting. I'm too hard on myself. I'm tired of trying, im fed up, im angry, im pissed. But mostly, i feel very disappointed. Damn fcking disappointed. And when people are so laid back, I can still be so persistent. I really dislike laid back people, nor do i like people who can't make decisions quickly.

Yeah, i should stop trying. People are taking it, taking ME, for granted.